it’s a compelling
necessity. all my friends i miss are the enlightened ones.
People who get turnt up in heaven
and spend some one-one-one time with
(spiritual teacher’s name here.)
I have no idea how I’ll have the guts to walk back into that restaurant tomorrow.
I lost my dignity, the other night – the place was jam packed and chaotic.
For you. I keep telling myself,
the only reason why it felt like hell
was because of you.
“You are the cause of your own heaven and hell.”
After one point, my mind couldn’t focus. I was tense and upset over what guests were saying.
I wasn’t the strongest character that day.
I realize now that I should’ve tried to act happy.
Stay into character, and role play like the words indeed
rolled off my shoulders, bounced off.
I let the pressure get to me, and fighting back tears I forgot to put someone’s food order in.
So every one had their food except for the large baby.
Then a table walked out on me. And I’m sure some people got free drinks.
I had like 8 tables. 9 tables at one point. I’ve been there 30 days. I’m counting.
i kept grabbing my hair, a really OCD habit of mine.
Trying to remember.orders
When it occurred to me.