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A Thousand Paper Cranes

I wrote this poem for you.
Folded up the sentences, creased
Meanings as I was murmur
How much I missed my
Fingers entwined with some place
In your hand, or your hair, or the end

Of your shirt.
I am using this poem
To love you but I wish miserably
That you would use me instead

Of a delicate Chinese crane
Bent too much in the wings and a slender
White neck you kiss
Wishing your lips lay on my collarbone.

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In memory of the pigeon with one leg i saw at the airport

I never saw a wild thing
sorry for itself.
A small bird will drop frozen dead from a bough
without ever having felt sorry for itself.
-D. H. Lawrence (self pity)

The Grim Reaper Quotes 3 Things Relevant to Art

“Art is pleasing yourself…but you can please yourself and it wont be art. Art is having the mastery to take your experience, whether it’s visual or mental, & make meaningful shapes that convey a reality to others.”
vonkate-blanchett1“Art continues to repay attention.”

“Art reaches its greates peak when devoid of self-consciousness. Freedom discovers man the moment he loses concern of what impression he is making or about to make.”

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abbey lee kershawHere’s 8 Things I Love for some cerebral stimulation. (Themed white) Inspire to inflict change in my life, donate here http://igg.me/at/belovenow/x/4196431, 3 days left to reach my 80 dollar goal. It’s all up to you! Alsooooo these posts are inspired by my short story epiphany i got yesterday afternoon, smoking a ciggy with my dog.

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Tie Loose Ends

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art by Steve Smith

Growing up in Southern California, I made macrame bracelets for friends. That was a long time ago. A dancer looking out for me in Colorado gave me an incredibly generous gift: crochet needles, yarn, and books. I’ve been non stop tying knots. It feels therapeutic to me. I went through my junk cigar box and picked out charms. I’m tying time in knots, inspired by themes around my room – the news on war, Eduardo’s camo jacket, my attitude not to look back. Matching colors with meanings. It was almost like a rite of passage when I learned the square knot.

We’re taking the greyhound in a week. I’m so excited to start our life in a new city. I hope I won’t get too nervous. My short term goals:

– get a job at Walgreens or a resturant
– support my love and best friend as he works impressively in the oil fields
– sell bracelets for tuition
– continue my daily fitness regimen
– take lots of pictures

My long term goals:

– get a second part time job for tuition
– buy a car
– enroll in a dance class
– become a pharmacy technician

Napoleon Hill advises “to create a definite plan of action and begin at once, without hesitation.”

Best Regards

quoteWhat’s the cure for uneven skin tone? What’s the best least-damaging solution to style curly hair straight? How does my hair maximize it’s natural colour? In other words….how can I feel comfortable under my skin? My routine to exfoilate with a descent scrub, take vitamin c and a multivitamin, start a collection of headscarves, wear sunglasses, sip green tea & apply spf 50 20 minutes before I step out into the sun & drink tons of water was missing acceptance. I can’t be perfect.

I’ve been so judgemental of myself this week. Sometimes I’m equipped with friendliness and forgivenss to my body and sometimes I’m cruel. This week I was cruel, and that’s hard to say. I condemned my looks and personality and encouraged Eduardo to feel the same. It’s like seeing me walk into a pole. Clang! My thoughts distract me.

It’s good I found this informative article. It reminded me that I’m only human, I need to focus on what facilitates purpose.

Eduardo and I talked about energy this morning. “An abundance of Energy put in the wrong direction is not as useful as the right amount energy in the right direction.” As a demonstration, he gently pushed me back and I kept walking backwards. “You’re going to keep moving backwards and watch if you stand in place and I push on your knee like this -” I stood confidently and he applies instant pressure on my right knee. I shriek and jump out of the way laughing. “You can’t move forward & I’m exterting no energy at all practically. See, it’s energy in the right direction, & I didn’t have to waste any energy.”

Eduardo reminds me of Bruce Lee. I’m the luckiest lady! I Heart Sharks has an irresitable beat. I’m bobbin’ my head I type. self esteem

Dirty Dog

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Yepp I’m selling everything I own to help pay for 2 Greyhound bus tickets! The fare is $278.00. I signed up for Greyhound Bus Rewards for a 10% discount on my first ticket and I’m scanning RetailMeNot for additional coupons. I want to take my violin and Eduardo’s guitar….which reminds me of my desperate Indiegogo campaign in pursuit of fixing up my violin. The materials are costly. You’re invisible hands can help lift me up though! Contributing to someone else’s well being is beneficial for every body involved.

Greyhound Road Rewards
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Be Love Now

Goodbye Apathy

The Nine Sectors of Your Whole Life

Family Personal Time Relationship
Work Leisure Contribution
Friends Hobby Personal Nourishment

Does your whole life consist of your relationship? Or are you too busy with work? “Each area requires 100% commitment (awareness, perseverance, & patience.) Participate as if you count. This grid reduces fear of loneliness.” I wrote that in my Progress Report journal while I read Ph.D Susan Jeffer’s self-help book “Feel the Fear…and do it anyways!”

These are the categories she suggests. You can fill them with what’s meaningful and purposeful to you. She instructs to take a few minutes and visualize what you’d like each quadrant to look like, and then ask yourself what specific steps can you take in that direction. Write it out and be descriptive. Taking accountability in setting short term goals – achievable goals – that you can complete in the next week or three days will help you complete your long term goals.

I can imagine inner peace for personal nourishment, so I can proactively participate in an activity, say yoga. Time management is key. My advice is to take on projects you can finish quicker, so you’ll have time for the bigger projects. It takes me 15 minutes in the morning to do my breathing exercises, poses, and drink two cups of water, whereas sometimes I don’t get the opportunity to privately study for 3 hours. I’d feel worse if I wasn’t doing something – but don’t be so hard on yourself.

This next exercise will help out with your Time Management skill. The Integrity Mirror was suggested by Ph.D Tal Ben Shahur in his self-help book about his positive phycology course he teaches at Harvard. In his book HAPPIER, you record the activities you participate in & the duration. For example, you spend 4 hours on facebook. Labeled: Activity, Time, Meaning & Pleasure – on a scale of 1-5, how meaningful was it for you to be on facebook for 4 hours? How good did it make you feel, did you derive satisfaction?

Then decide if you want to spend more or less time on facebook.

There are habits that can be detrimental to our health. For some reason, we abandon our strengths when we need them the most. This keeps you on track to do the things that make you happy. Remember, whether you believe you can or can’t, you’re right.
– Don’t live with the result of other people’s thinking
– Don’t do anything that you’d feel ashamed of later
– Do live in the present moment
– Do give yourself a pat on the back
There are 24 hours in a day. I divided my activities with the amount of hours, and I found I can spend 2 hours on each activity, with 8 hours of sleep included.

I have time to paint, time to read, time to love, time to work out, and time to enjoy a movie, time to volunteer, time to be with my sweetheart.

The only thing I don’t like about this is the mindset it can put you in, like you can control what happens to you. You can make a conscious effort to get the outcome you desire, but not everything works out accordingly. The future is uncertain. For example, in my life right now my biggest focus is getting a job. I do my best with what I have – I’m persistent with managers, I dress for the motto “if you want to be successful dress prosperous”, keep track of whose hiring, but I can’t control the market. I had a job for one week at a Chinese restaurant, and the manager, Shawn, told me on the last Sunday “So we not real busy, I’ll call you when we get busy.” I applied for the company my mom works for, she works from hom… and my computer bleeped up and ruined the interview, thus disqualifying me for the job.

In his memoir, The Last Lecture, Randy discusses the brick walls that stand in our way. The brick walls are there to show us how badly we want something. Don’t give up, we should never give up. “As I see it, if you work more hours than somebody else, during those hours you learn more about your craft. That can make you more efficient, more able, even happier.”