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quoteWhat’s the cure for uneven skin tone? What’s the best least-damaging solution to style curly hair straight? How does my hair maximize it’s natural colour? In other words….how can I feel comfortable under my skin? My routine to exfoilate with a descent scrub, take vitamin c and a multivitamin, start a collection of headscarves, wear sunglasses, sip green tea & apply spf 50 20 minutes before I step out into the sun & drink tons of water was missing acceptance. I can’t be perfect.

I’ve been so judgemental of myself this week. Sometimes I’m equipped with friendliness and forgivenss to my body and sometimes I’m cruel. This week I was cruel, and that’s hard to say. I condemned my looks and personality and encouraged Eduardo to feel the same. It’s like seeing me walk into a pole. Clang! My thoughts distract me.

It’s good I found this informative article. It reminded me that I’m only human, I need to focus on what facilitates purpose.

Eduardo and I talked about energy this morning. “An abundance of Energy put in the wrong direction is not as useful as the right amount energy in the right direction.” As a demonstration, he gently pushed me back and I kept walking backwards. “You’re going to keep moving backwards and watch if you stand in place and I push on your knee like this -” I stood confidently and he applies instant pressure on my right knee. I shriek and jump out of the way laughing. “You can’t move forward & I’m exterting no energy at all practically. See, it’s energy in the right direction, & I didn’t have to waste any energy.”

Eduardo reminds me of Bruce Lee. I’m the luckiest lady! I Heart Sharks has an irresitable beat. I’m bobbin’ my head I type. self esteem

O P E N until 8

“Books have given me a magic portal to connect with people of the past and the present. i know i shall never feel lonely or powerless again. Having your dreams shattered really is nothing compared to what many others have suffered. i have come to believe that the most important purpose of a dream is to get us in touch with where dreams come from. Where passion comes from! Where happiness comes from! even a shattered dream can do that for you.” – Lisa Bu

Goodbye Apathy

The Nine Sectors of Your Whole Life

Family Personal Time Relationship
Work Leisure Contribution
Friends Hobby Personal Nourishment

Does your whole life consist of your relationship? Or are you too busy with work? “Each area requires 100% commitment (awareness, perseverance, & patience.) Participate as if you count. This grid reduces fear of loneliness.” I wrote that in my Progress Report journal while I read Ph.D Susan Jeffer’s self-help book “Feel the Fear…and do it anyways!”

These are the categories she suggests. You can fill them with what’s meaningful and purposeful to you. She instructs to take a few minutes and visualize what you’d like each quadrant to look like, and then ask yourself what specific steps can you take in that direction. Write it out and be descriptive. Taking accountability in setting short term goals – achievable goals – that you can complete in the next week or three days will help you complete your long term goals.

I can imagine inner peace for personal nourishment, so I can proactively participate in an activity, say yoga. Time management is key. My advice is to take on projects you can finish quicker, so you’ll have time for the bigger projects. It takes me 15 minutes in the morning to do my breathing exercises, poses, and drink two cups of water, whereas sometimes I don’t get the opportunity to privately study for 3 hours. I’d feel worse if I wasn’t doing something – but don’t be so hard on yourself.

This next exercise will help out with your Time Management skill. The Integrity Mirror was suggested by Ph.D Tal Ben Shahur in his self-help book about his positive phycology course he teaches at Harvard. In his book HAPPIER, you record the activities you participate in & the duration. For example, you spend 4 hours on facebook. Labeled: Activity, Time, Meaning & Pleasure – on a scale of 1-5, how meaningful was it for you to be on facebook for 4 hours? How good did it make you feel, did you derive satisfaction?

Then decide if you want to spend more or less time on facebook.

There are habits that can be detrimental to our health. For some reason, we abandon our strengths when we need them the most. This keeps you on track to do the things that make you happy. Remember, whether you believe you can or can’t, you’re right.
– Don’t live with the result of other people’s thinking
– Don’t do anything that you’d feel ashamed of later
– Do live in the present moment
– Do give yourself a pat on the back
There are 24 hours in a day. I divided my activities with the amount of hours, and I found I can spend 2 hours on each activity, with 8 hours of sleep included.

I have time to paint, time to read, time to love, time to work out, and time to enjoy a movie, time to volunteer, time to be with my sweetheart.

The only thing I don’t like about this is the mindset it can put you in, like you can control what happens to you. You can make a conscious effort to get the outcome you desire, but not everything works out accordingly. The future is uncertain. For example, in my life right now my biggest focus is getting a job. I do my best with what I have – I’m persistent with managers, I dress for the motto “if you want to be successful dress prosperous”, keep track of whose hiring, but I can’t control the market. I had a job for one week at a Chinese restaurant, and the manager, Shawn, told me on the last Sunday “So we not real busy, I’ll call you when we get busy.” I applied for the company my mom works for, she works from hom… and my computer bleeped up and ruined the interview, thus disqualifying me for the job.

In his memoir, The Last Lecture, Randy discusses the brick walls that stand in our way. The brick walls are there to show us how badly we want something. Don’t give up, we should never give up. “As I see it, if you work more hours than somebody else, during those hours you learn more about your craft. That can make you more efficient, more able, even happier.”

Do You Want the Truth or Something Beautiful?


Before I left to California, I was steadily trying to gain weight & I was obsessed with growing your own food. Self-sufficiency. I theorized that the cure to depression was becoming self-sufficient. I learned that a human has to participate in life – a stewardship, a contribution – i learned that digging your hands into the soil raised serotonin in the brain, vibes to feel happy.

The Russian astronaught who holds the record for the longest time spent in space had to grow wheat to keep himself from feeling depressed (which affected his physical body.)It gave him and his crew something to talk about, and it gave him something to care for.
The body and the mind are connected.

“Just Breathe”

>The breath is evidence that the mind and the body are connected. When you’re angry, you’re breath is quick. When you’re sad, you’re breath is different. Breathing is the fastest and most efficent way to find my center, even when I’m struggling with something difficult. It reminds me that I am not my emotions.

I’ve been practicing yoga for over a week, and I observed that I can make my body sit still, but my mind cannot. Soon, the thoughts in my head overthrow my pose. To correct myself, the only simple thing is to breathe. A spiritual teacher taught me to say “Sooo” when you inhale in your head, and on the exhale, “Ummmm” a deep vibrating tone. He explained that those words were the sound of my Self. Every one I met in Northern California told me I was an old soul. Is this why I’m looking so hard for something that I’m not sure even if it’s there, or what it is? Then I read that the breath is connected to your mind. You hear all the hype that yoga calms your mind, but my theory is that there’s something I have to do before that. I can’t participate in yoga until my mind is free.  My body is connected to my mind. And I’m connected to everything.

 

Remeber when I dug my fingers into the soil? On my knees, my wet hair drying under the sun, and it was like waking up from a dream, the next moment i let it slip through my fingers.

That was in May 2012. Weird how certain experiences change you.

A few days ago, I began research on the suppression of emotions. Yunno, I felt like that was a good direction to start in. I’m still in the beginning of my research, and I honestly don’t have all the questions answered. What happens to negative emotions when we don’t express ourselves? How do I reach my fullest potential? How do I express my soul? How do I lavish my heart’s desire?

 
and i know my grammer is shit b/c i’m typing this 100 words per minute, and I want to get out of this room.

Breath & the Cosmos

Gabby and Eduardo caught me practicing my breathing exercizes while we passed the pipe. All of us were venting. I’ll participate in breath reps when since it’s anegative topic or when I notice the tension in my abdomen. The jurist and Tantric scholar Sir John Woodroffe wrote  that the breath is a mantra that is not recited because it is said with volition. My last post I told you the technique the yogi taught me, that I can think of my breath as “So” (inhale) “Um” (exhale.) The scholar also wrote that breath is expressed through inspiration (Sa) or expiration (Ha). Sakti or Shiva, what does that mean? It sounds like what the yogi told me, “Sa/So – Um/Ha.”

 

Well I’m done applying for new jobs in the area, a chocolate hersey kiss is waiting for me on the counter with an open book.

Yoga for Sleepyheads

sun salutations

sun salutations

In my opinion, the sun salutations is a terrific exericize when you’ve been in a position for a long period of time. I do this when i wake up in the morning, it helps me feel energized.

You start in mountain pose, that benefits good posture. bring your feet together, toes touching, bring your hands together in prayer, and imagine a line going through the center of your body. inhale, and when you exhale, reach up and look behind you as far as you can see, inhale, come down when you exhale. sometimes i’ll hold pose 2 for 4 breaths.

Sun Salutations are good if you experience back pain.

Avoid doing yoga under direct sunlight.

I’ll post a bunch more yoga poses for beginners and include some background information on yoga, and some of the yogis I google for good measure.

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